~ AND *i* can not do that MOM
~& YES that is / was a wilful act of will, as too *i* believe, the act of *IT* (should BE SO!) that has govern’d, nigh on from start, the whole of that Life.
*i* Believe too that *U* understand that refusal ‘to apologise’, BUT more ‘pertinently’ – *i* believe & have acted upon the belief that *u*, Dad & some, if not all of mY Uncles and Aunts knew, that by the time *u* read me THE JUNGLE BOOK Story, that *i* had already “LEARNT” ~The Apology v Learn instead~ Lesson.
AND~ that THE ISSUE~ was NOT ‘then’ Abandonment BUT ‘SPECIAL’ & those that Do and have Suffered under it’s (*Special,s*) weight……ever since THE 1st WISH was *illuminated*.